A Work In Progress

“For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.” The Psalmist praises God for creating him so intricately and beautifully. There have been times I forgot this basic truth that God thought about me and made me for a specific purpose. We didn’t just come into existence. These thoughts seem to cross our minds when things are going downhill, when we mess up and especially when we feel like we’re not needed. But that is when we should be quick to realize that those are lies filling our heads and we need to snap out of those thoughts. Rather we should fill our minds with God’s truth where He calls us His child, a treasured possession and that we belong in His family. True, we do make mistakes but as long as we’re in the Potter’s hand, He’ll mould us and shape us like clay made into a vessel used for its unique purpose. Certain experiences might break us but we needn’t stay broken because we have a Master Potter still at work, who’ll restore us and use us for His glory. So don’t beat yourself up, you’re still a work in progress, full of beauty, purpose and worth. πŸ˜‰

The Early Bird

23rd August, 2018

This proverb of “The early bird catches the worm” has been in my head for a few weeks now and I’ve been meaning to write about it from yesterday. But it so happened that I got to have a small chat with someone, related to this. So I figured I better pen it down before I forget. This is yet to become a habit but I know for sure that I have to discipline myself to wake up early in the morning. Of course, you have people telling you that successful people are known to be early wakers (yea, I couldn’t find a better word). That’s a fact which may strike you or go over your head. But, in this season, my shortcomings help me learn my lesson. For example, the past week, I missed my bus and that was unnecessary tension for me that whole day because: 1) I have to stand all the way from Tambaram to Shollinganallur (1 hour) with three bags in a super crowded bus. 2) I’ll reach college an hour late which means I have to try to speed up. 3) So I have to utilize my lunch time for working and it’ll be a miracle if I finish my lunch. 4) Not to forget, I haven’t had my breakfast or fruits which I’ll probably keep in the fridge and have to eat the following day. 5) I’m going to be tired the whole evening so I won’t read anything. 6) Plus if I’m on my phone, I’d probably get a headache. Now that’s a very tiresome and exhausting day where I have to work extra hard and use all of my strength for doing anything. Whereas, had I woken up earlier and caught the right train, all of this would have been a breeze. That’s what I mean by the early bird catches the worm.

Abigail

So that was my journal entry last year and it’s sad that the events of a tiresome day due to sleeping in are still true even in the present. Cultivating discipline is hard. The struggle is real. But we choose to persevere and build right convictions and not give up on them even if we fail miserably from time to time. Here’s to another opportunity to wake early! πŸ™‚

PS: I didn’t have to elaborate on the details of my tiresome day but I chose to because I didn’t want to mask the struggle. Also, it was high time I posted this. #LaterBloggingIGuess ;p

Weave it

I thought I’d do a really random post where each paragraph would be unrelated to the other and a section of its own. It’s a fun post, I’ll be all over the place. So don’t take me seriously ;p

When I was a kid, I wanted to be so many things. Let’s keep it priority wise. First of all, a missionary doctor. Then a musician (guitar, piano, drums and the bass). I would not compromise on these two. The others I’m not quite serious about, nevertheless, they are: an athlete, a tennis player, a dancer, a singer, a poet, a chef (pretty sure it was because of Masterchef Australia), a detective and a writer. Well maybe I haven’t entirely given up on any of those, still hoping they’ll come true one day.

Okay, I’m going to let this out in the open. This is hard but one day it is bound to be known by everyone. So I might as well say it now. I am a clichΓ© girl with respect to Barbie and being obsessed with purple. I still watch Barbie movies and know almost all the songs byheart. But I gave up on the dolls when I was 7 because I stumbled upon the number 666 on its head and I freaked out. I’m also a huge Disney fan ( whether it’s Sofia the first or The Descendants or any of the Disney princesses movies, I love them all [ in your face people who would have never guessed this part of me, just kidding ] )

I’m an introvert but I think over the past few years I have changed quite a lot and don’t hesitate at all actually to talk to people (mostly girls and kids). I love solitude and if I didn’t have a phone, I would definitely be doing something interesting all by myself.

So there’s no reason for me to put out all this information about myself but as I already said 1. This is a fun random post, 2. You readers might as well know this tiny side of mine πŸ˜‰

Now that I think about it, this could have been titled “Facts about Abby, Fun or not, You Decide”. (That’s a whole sentence for a title. One would never believe that I actually won a competition called Caption writing.)

When I said I’d be all over the place in the beginning, I definitely did not mean grammatical errors. But in the end it looks so. Why ain’t I changing them? For future me to look back and go “You could have done better.”

Anyways, I’ll end it with this. Change is the only constant in life after God, of course. So don’t be surprised if I change. πŸ˜‰

If you actually read this, do leave a comment of what you thought about it (please).

Bad Company Corrupts Good Morals

Today, as I was having my morning coffee, I couldn’t stop myself from eavesdropping on the conversation the group seated a table away was having. It seemed liked casual talk at first, one of them was complaining about his colleague being a bit testing from time to time. But then, the others soon joined in and suddenly it was a loud uproar filled with laughter. There were quick accusations made, faults magnified, trash talk and character assassinations of their colleagues. Some very mean comments were said. Imagine, the five of them wouldn’t have planned to do what they did. But in the end, they all turned out to be “bad company” for the other.

When you come to think of it, bad company is often restricted to refer to people you surround yourself with. While this is true, one should also look at it like this: it really could be what you’re watching, reading, imagining and thinking. How clean is your imagination and how pure are your thoughts? Only you and God know what goes on in your mind. If our thoughts can’t be shown on a screen to multitudes of people without any shame, then they are not worth thinking about at all. Be quick to get rid of any kind of immorality. Pick up the habit of renewing your mind and completely depend on God to get you through. πŸ™‚

(Quick posts before tests ;))

Two Decades

Feels like a lifetime and yet is just the beginning of a whole new phase of my life. No longer a child or a teenager but an actual young adult. With the advancing of years, maturity is expected. To a certain extent it develops naturally but the rest of it needs to be consciously cultivated. The putting off of childish ways and the embracement of responsibilities takes time.

Stepping into new areas where God wants to take me deeper. To know His Will and Way above all else. To seek His face and gaze upon His beauty all the days of my life. To daily walk with Him and hear Him speak. To never lose the awe and reverence of God. To build relationships with the people He brings into my life. God, these are my desires, may You bring them to fruition.

My heart is overflowing with thankfulness for all that He has done all these past twenty years. And I’ve officially lived longer in India. God is so good.


I had written everything above this on January 8th. Now I’m one month into my twenty first year. Honestly, I have not lived up to any of what I typed. Today ,particularly , I had a huge fall. But I’m not ready to give up just yet. I came across something beautiful Kelly Needham had posted. I’m just going to copy that here.

Sure, it may look like me ,but there’s someone different underneath. An entirely new person with new desires, new preferences and new tendencies.

It’s interesting to me that when Paul answers the question, “Shall we continue to sin?”,he appeals not to right or wrong but to our new identity.

“How can we who died to sin still live in it? We know that our old self was crucified with him in order that the body of sin might be brought to nothing, so that we would no longer be enslaved to sin. You have been set free from sin and have become slaves of God.” -Romans 6:2,6,22

Our former self is as gone as a corpse in a grave. We are dead to sin now. We are slaves to God now. So how does it even make sense to continue in sin?

Our new identity with Christ and our Union with Him is Paul’s argument against our temptation to sin. It’s just not who we are anymore.

Like the butterfly trying to crawl through the dirt like the caterpillar he once was, when we go back to our sin we embrace an old way of life no longer fitting to who we are now. When we go back to our sin, we choose a constricted life on the ground when we’ve been given wings to fly. Why would we even want to stay in the ground? Why go back to eating leaves when we have been made to drink the sweet nectar from the flower?

We might not have the same external evidence of metamorphosis like the butterfly but the change within every Christian is just as real and permanent.

If you are in Christ today, if you have trusted Jesus to be your righteousness, then you are a new creature. Your old self is dead and buried. You’ve been given wings to fly, so use them. You’ve been given new taste buds, so eat accordingly. You’ve been united permanently to the risen Christ, so walk in newness of life today.

Why should we resist the temptation to sin today? Because it’s not who we are anymore. Christian, you’ve already been made righteous. So be who you are. Taste and see how much better God is than the empty and bitter flavors of sin. We’ve been given wings to fly, so why stay on the ground?

– Kelly Needham

Well, as simple as it may seem, it is a very real reminder to me. And to you. πŸ™‚

The Truth In Love

Okay, that title might sound a bit misleading. In your face, shallow title judging judges. I’m just kidding, no offense. Anyways, my whole trigger for the topic “Truth” is based on things that happened around mid July. Those events exponentially increased my value for the truth at all times. I remember in school when we had to write the thought for the day, I’d always write “Honesty is the best policy”. So many misunderstandings, fights and hurts would have been resolved in the past had we just been honest with each other. I had to change schools in my seventh grade just because my friends were unwilling to tell me what I had done wrong in order for me to apologise and change. There were other aspects attached to it but this was one of the major problems. Transparency from the government is a rare jewel to find. It sometimes gets so frustrating that they would dim down the lights and keep hushed about what is happening and manipulate the news to deliver something false. They try to take advantage of the naive minds of people by giving them false hopes.

I know I sound vague without laying out the actual events but I hope it makes sense. There is the other aspect of telling the truth though. It can be told in a very harsh manner especially when it’s said out of spite, anger, bitterness, envy and pride. In such cases, I think it’s better to not say anything at all. Which is why the title “The Truth In Love”. We speak the truth to one another in love, to build them up and not tear them down. You see, love rejoices with the truth. Without love, the truth is just plain ugly. But the truth with love brings healing. πŸ˜‰

Jesus is the Way, the Truth and the Life.

Joy

That verse is literally proved true every time I enter God’s presence. I mean, when you meet with God, you just forget about all that’s on your mind. Instead you remember His goodness and faithfulness through every moment of your life. That does indeed make you a ridiculously happy person and you can’t contain it in all the time that you might even end up smiling.

It might seem strange for me, of all people, to talk about smiling and being joyous as I normally appear to be quite serious. I remember talking to a friend of mine about how people over time put me inside a box of seriousness and stiffness that when I tell them something like I dance (which I really love to do by the way), they think I’m joking and laugh it off. Anyways, my point in saying all of that is “Don’t judge a book by its cover”. I take time to unwrap, that’s all.

Well, how did I even choose to write about joy? It was all over the place for a few months as I was in the process of learning small lessons but in the end it all just intertwined and fit in perfectly under joy.

Now, joy is a part of the fruit of the Spirit. Let me break it down a little bit. That means our lives should be so full of the Spirit that we would overflow and bear fruit and be joyful always. But many at times, we lose our joy and peace over circumstances that happen. You would have noticed how worrying, over anything for that matter, would get you disheartened and afraid very easily. Now Jesus specifically tells us to not worry, for our heavenly Father already knows what we need. All we actually need to do is to seek Him first and ask Him, for He answers and gives. He is a good, loving and generous Father.

The enemy is on the move trying to steal, kill and destroy at any given opportunity. One of the ways he succeeds to steal our joy is by comparison. I’ve heard many people tell me this and so I’m telling you, social media exposes you to the various lifestyles of different people. This give a huge room for comparison. So instead of being content and grateful for what we have, we’re grumbling, complaining and getting depressed over things we don’t have (whether material or even how a person conducts himself). Always remember, you are unique, a designer product and one of a kind. Did you know there are five things that prove there’s no other copy of you? You have your fingerprint, retina print, DNA, voice print (this fascinates me) and body odour (more on the “strange facts I recently found out”). So literally, there is ABSOLUTELY NOBODY ELSE who sounds or smells like you. You decide if you really think it’s worthwhile to compare even after knowing all of that.

Joy is an attitude, a conscious choice. You know why? Because joy and peace are an assurance given to us by God. They say peace is joy resting and joy is, well, joy dancing. Therefore it is our choice to remain joyful. And that choice will be made easier if you value the joy for the true strength that it is. Another reminder, if it’s an assurance, joy then, can never be dependent on our circumstances.

So while I was connecting and relating all of this, I realized that my name, Abigail, actually means “Father’s joy” or “God is Joy”. For me that was the icing on the cake. πŸ™‚

That’s quite a lot for a second blog post but this has been upon my heart for quite some time now and I really needed to word it. Congratulations to those of you who made it to the end. πŸ˜…